writing again

This year I will be writing again.

That’s a statement of commitment, of aspiration, of obedience and stewardship … but also one of hopefulness tinged with fear.

I lost my mojo in 2017. I’m not sure how to explain why (in just a few sentences) but even now, as I’m writing and re-writing and re-starting and starting over again and feeling verbally constipated and questioning every thought that comes to my mind – I’m fighting the oppression, doubt and intimidation – the voice of criticism and questioning – that comprehensively beat me (specifically in relation to my writing) in 2018.

I hate how derailed I’ve been. I hate how much power I’ve given to a voice that’s not speaking the truth and life of God. 

But this year I will be writing again.

“Your message is for ministry.”

Running parallel to the paralysis that carried over from the end of 2017, last year was the most freeing, affirming and empowering time I’ve ever known – an odd juxtaposition.

I feel like God has done a Mufasa on me – you know, the scene from the Lion King where he takes Simba to the top of Pride Rock and says “Look Simba, everything the light touches is our kingdom” (God often teaches me in Disney metaphors and quotes – don’t judge me – He knows my heart language.)  God has lifted my chin to cause me to look up and around and see so much possibility and opportunity, and then let me loose in it! I feel like I’m in the sweetest ministry spot; where everything that I’ve been privileged to experience and learn, is combining with all of my gifts, skills and passions, and I’m more confident than ever in my shape, call and capacity. By confident I mean, I am completely aware that anything of wisdom or value I have to offer comes from God and His resource for those things is inexhaustible – so, let’s go!!

Years ago, when I was feeling the final prompts to write the book, I was wrestling writing-doubts and commented to a friend, “Perhaps the message of this book is just for me.” She fired back, “No, when God gives you a message, it’s for ministry.” Boom!

So, this year I’m writing again. Because He keeps giving me messages, so I’ll keep handing them over for ministry.


4 thoughts on “writing again

  1. Kimberley I can totally relate to losing ones creative mojo as it’s happened to me numerous times over the decades. In my case it has been a lifelong battle, thorn in the flesh really, with depression and anxiety. 2018, around July, without exaggeration, would have to have been the most crippling time in my life. But, as you know, God is faithful to bring us through the valleys and I’m happy to currently be enjoying a season of rejoicing, deep love and gratitude. I’ve come to the conclusion that God has wired creative types this way so as to maximise their empathy. I liken this life to the agony and the ecstasy. In the past I’ve thought about taking medication to even out the range of these emotional swings but have rejected that idea as I don’t want to risk taking the edge off of my creative peaks. I guess I’m sharing all this with you because I feel you’d understand and perhaps derive some encouragement from this. You are amazing and I know you will fulfill your created purpose because the One you serve is faithful to complete His work in you.

    I’ll be praying for you and cheering you on, you’ve most definitely got this!

    Much Love
    Steve 🎸🎶


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